time...

yes i just got up...it is a saturday afterall...talking about saturday....looking out to the grey sky...hearing the left over rain drops...reminded me alot of things...

i remembered...the fragrance nasi lemak that comes with a very nice chicken wing...i remembered the ketchup fishball noodles without the fishball and fishcake...i remembered the ngo hiang...i remembered alot of food that it has been sometime since i took...i miss the taste...i miss the environment...i miss the person i took the food with...

people always tell me...time will heal....i am starting to believe in that...till yesterday...i realised..i haven heal...in actual fact...i dun even noe if i have rooted myself in the same place...time will not heal by urself...it is urself forcing urself to heal over the time....i hate tat....coz...i noe once it's gone...it's hard to come back...

i also start to disbelieve in forever...there's no such thing as love you always...loving u forever....wat kind of love would that be...i dunnoe....now i realise wat is the difference between promises and assuarances....u need not be afraid that assuarances will ever hurt u....but u noe that when promises are broken..it hurts like hell...