do QUESTIONS have ANSWERs...

see the question mark...it will always mean a question...but to some people, questions are reasons for their avoidance attitude if there is ever a word...my gf ask me a question...why did i get together with my present bf when i can also feel very comfortable with another guy friend...i started to think...thinking and thinking...my bf's character and mine isn't quite the same...well..i love to find places to eat and i dun mind spending lots of money on food but to him money can be spent on large amounts on very special occasions and when there is a once in a while gathering...i am considered a neat and tidy and organised person although he is rather the opposite...i love my family and my relatives, but to him, the closer the person get to him, he will treat them worse than strangers...WELL...suddenly i feel tat i like to be with someone whom share my interest and not someone not really my kind...BUT then coming back to the question...seriously i got together with him coz we were very close friends and i felt something for him..i like 'gan jin xin' as in he will work hard for money and study real smart...i like his humour and his crap...i like the comfort i found when i am with him...those were the things i was attracted to him...have all the attractions gone?...my BARDIE told me...i was trying to make a decision of whether to continue the relationship but scared tat i will be hurt over the tiredness and i guess he is so rite on tat....my bf asked me 'Do you still love me? If u still love me, i will try to win u back.'...i did not noe wat to reply...i am still afraid that due to his personality it will repeat itself and by then will i be able to take it anymore...my MUM asked me do i miss him..i said i felt happy and relieved when he went in..she told me tat maybe i have not enjoyed freedom for long but she say my feelings for him maybe back later...my COUSIN-IN-LAW said tat these 2 years will be a test and if we pass this test, it means we have passed that phase...wat should i do now...i really feel like taking a break and be friends again...but will i be able to take it...can he accept the decision...OR...i was being selfish...