the road...

in life...roads will never be smooth and straight...but it is the uneven and the curves that lets u treasure the smooth and straight roads...and they are the ones that makes u more matured...a relationship is about a road too...it is whether you will want to travel the same difficulties and enjoy the ride with the person next to you...

today has been an hectic day....had some shopping done...and i guess...my sisters were shocked by wat i did today...i immediately bought a pair of tongs...and just went clubbing at club momo with some friends....and left my stuff with one of the sisters...

the impulsive actually surprises them and it surprises myself...i asked myself while i took a cab to club momo...wat was the purpose of me going there...i told myself i got several reasons....to drink...to see what was so nice about club momo...and i guess...to see him...

i smiled so widely once i stepped into club momo...coz itwas him who came to the door to welcome me...but...there was alot i wanted to do and say when i see him...but...everything just turns silence....we didn't tok...and he left for something i didn't noe for quite sometime...then i realised how stupid i was when one of my sisters said if he ignored me and i feel upset why should i go...but i still went thinking i wun...

haha....how stupid i was...i was...he was indeed enjoying a good time with his friends...he survived why...and i saw it with my own eyes...i saw how he enjoyed being single...then why should i still burden him...tat's why i decided to leave the place without saying goodbye... it was indeed waste of money...but...at least...some how....i got more assuarances on the answer...

i left and somehow...after some messages....i noe he is stoning outside the club...i was wondering why...but i wanted to be there..it doesn't matter if it cost more money or time...but i wanted to go back and be with him...but...he said noe...how i wish he said he wants...but...there will never be a time he will ever say 'i need you'....

suddenly...i realised how silly i was and still am....