my SUAYest week....my ENLIGHTENMENT week...
haiz...all of u can't imagine how bad my week can get....everything can just simply come at the same time...and by the time u read till the last part...u will understand how come i am affected by all these ya...
NO. 1 - SPRAIN ANKLE
can u imagine i actually sprain the same ankle again while walking on normal ground in my flats...how pathetic can that get...i also cannot believe it man....so i got to drag myself back home...sad xia...and now i got to wear ankle guard so that i can walk with ease...so ugly...
NO. 2 - BANG INTO FRIDGE
yes yes...i almost spoilt my own fridge early in the morning...i scare my mum when she heard the fridge moved and the loud bang i made when i bang into it....i was just not in the rite mind...
NO. 3 - ADDITIONAL WORKLOAD
i mean..i dun mind additional workload but how could this workload happen to me this week when i am super tired and rushing out a quaterly report...aarrrggghhh....i seriously dun understand...but then...at least some of it i manage to clear...haiz...
NO. 4 - MONITOR DIED!!!
my office monitor just die on me...and guess wat....i got to move the monitor myself...and fix a new monitor up....OMG..early in the morning i already feel so tired....how can like tat...CAAS should invest more on better computers and LCDs.....haiz...wat to do...
NO. 5 - DA YI MA
at the worst time of my life...here comes the visit...and is like killing me coz it seems like coming and not coming...and now...the cramp is killing me like hell...aarrrggghhh....how can it happen in the same week....whyyyyyyy.....
NO. 6 - MY DEAR G SISTER
actually it hurt to see a close friend going through a tough relationship...i can see how much she gave into this relationship and how much she love this guy....but this guy doesn't seems to realise that...i mean...i understand during exams..it is better not to see each other...but a simple phone call or msg means so much...does a few minutes make such a big difference...but then...wat to do...some ppl just dun like to be disturbed...tat's wat i told her...i believe she understands and she also wants to be understanding...tat's why she is still holding on...and i believe that he still love her alot...but...we gers...need a little attention and assurances...
NO. 7 - MY BRADDIE & GF
well...i noe how much the ger love him...and i noe my this braddie is actually a very good guy...but i also understand tat...even when a couple be together...they would want some alone time...u can't possibly spend 24/7 with each other...some alone time can also help in a relationship...and seriously...silence is no good...tok things out...i mean in a calm manner...and seriously...when the gf ask me some stuff...it reminded me and william..well..at least i do noe tat it doesn't hurt much now....and seriously...at this age when one is still studying and the other in army...it wun be easy to handle...and seriously...the future will still be blur...it wun be clear till both of u start working and start moving into the reality....
NO. 8 - BIRTHDAY PLAN
well...i tot everything was going fine as i manage to get the bungalow..but guess wat..HR messed up everything...coz they had to reballot and the person is not from my division...SHIT...so now i am caught in a big problem...and seriously...i am still trying to resolve all issues...haiz...heng i haven send the invitation out...if not pai seh xia..and i will also feel very bad...haiz....
NO. 9 - 4 DAYS AFTER MY BDAY
everybody tot that i will be very happy celebrating my bday...but...few ppl noe the sadness i feel when the day comes near...coz 4 days afetr my birthday is my aunt's 2nd death anniversary... i will never forget the last one hour i spent beside her...
NO. 10 - A NEW LIFE..A NEW ME
after going through so many things in one week....i learnt alot of things...and i felt all kinds of feelings...
i look back to the period when tat guy and me started to really talk...the period before we went on a date...and the period during his exams...and the period after his exams...
maybe he never realise...but during these periods...his attitude have been very different...that's why i told him about the sudden coldness and hotness...i understand when a person is studying and busy with his own stuff...but after tat...no msg no toking no nothing...it becomes scary....i really pulled back alot of feelings tat's why i also never initiate any calls...
then finally before he is going to overseas..i decided to ask him out...but it seems like his schedule is very pack before and after the trip...well...of course i am disppointed...but...there isn't anything i can do...
tat's why i decided i rather go back to the 'friends' stage where we will forget watever feelings we mentioned to each other before his exams...in this way...everything will be better...and so many things have been happening to me that make me feel very tired...
"i hate ppl who keep saying sorry out of nowhere...coz it seems free to them and mean nothing to them..and one thing for sure...i dun like ppl who use my name to start a sentence or putting a meaning across me...coz...the feeling SUX big time..."*this was meant to be vented out...
but he said we can't really noe the feelings and we will need time to noe each other better before stepping into anything that is going to hurt someone if it doesn't work out...well...seriously...i NEVER wanted to rush into things...i also want to get to noe him better...but..getting to noe someone means communication and spending time with each other and hanging out...but his packed schedule tat doesn't include a friend like me made me feel tat he is turning his back on me...tat's why i decided to forget watever we said in the first place...no matter how sweet it was in the beginning...
i would really love to have a good tok with him and get to noe him better...coz...i also dun wish to rush into a new relationship...maybe i was too simple and he was too complicated...or was i too complicated and he was too simple...or maybe both of us are too simple thinking tat we will get to noe each other better without hanging out and not communicating...
i am someone who dun really ask alot...i use alot of my heart rather than my mind...and i am someone who can be seen through easily if u use ur heart to feel...
i dunnoe how things will turn out afetr wat i told him..i dunnoe...but once again...he is away...
tat nite i was having dinner with a friend...and unexpectedly...he noe me so well..that he can just say my character out..and bingo...he is so rite...wat is my character...hahaha...got chance then i shall share in my blog....let this be my next topic...
NO. 1 - SPRAIN ANKLE
can u imagine i actually sprain the same ankle again while walking on normal ground in my flats...how pathetic can that get...i also cannot believe it man....so i got to drag myself back home...sad xia...and now i got to wear ankle guard so that i can walk with ease...so ugly...
NO. 2 - BANG INTO FRIDGE
yes yes...i almost spoilt my own fridge early in the morning...i scare my mum when she heard the fridge moved and the loud bang i made when i bang into it....i was just not in the rite mind...
NO. 3 - ADDITIONAL WORKLOAD
i mean..i dun mind additional workload but how could this workload happen to me this week when i am super tired and rushing out a quaterly report...aarrrggghhh....i seriously dun understand...but then...at least some of it i manage to clear...haiz...
NO. 4 - MONITOR DIED!!!
my office monitor just die on me...and guess wat....i got to move the monitor myself...and fix a new monitor up....OMG..early in the morning i already feel so tired....how can like tat...CAAS should invest more on better computers and LCDs.....haiz...wat to do...
NO. 5 - DA YI MA
at the worst time of my life...here comes the visit...and is like killing me coz it seems like coming and not coming...and now...the cramp is killing me like hell...aarrrggghhh....how can it happen in the same week....whyyyyyyy.....
NO. 6 - MY DEAR G SISTER
actually it hurt to see a close friend going through a tough relationship...i can see how much she gave into this relationship and how much she love this guy....but this guy doesn't seems to realise that...i mean...i understand during exams..it is better not to see each other...but a simple phone call or msg means so much...does a few minutes make such a big difference...but then...wat to do...some ppl just dun like to be disturbed...tat's wat i told her...i believe she understands and she also wants to be understanding...tat's why she is still holding on...and i believe that he still love her alot...but...we gers...need a little attention and assurances...
NO. 7 - MY BRADDIE & GF
well...i noe how much the ger love him...and i noe my this braddie is actually a very good guy...but i also understand tat...even when a couple be together...they would want some alone time...u can't possibly spend 24/7 with each other...some alone time can also help in a relationship...and seriously...silence is no good...tok things out...i mean in a calm manner...and seriously...when the gf ask me some stuff...it reminded me and william..well..at least i do noe tat it doesn't hurt much now....and seriously...at this age when one is still studying and the other in army...it wun be easy to handle...and seriously...the future will still be blur...it wun be clear till both of u start working and start moving into the reality....
NO. 8 - BIRTHDAY PLAN
well...i tot everything was going fine as i manage to get the bungalow..but guess wat..HR messed up everything...coz they had to reballot and the person is not from my division...SHIT...so now i am caught in a big problem...and seriously...i am still trying to resolve all issues...haiz...heng i haven send the invitation out...if not pai seh xia..and i will also feel very bad...haiz....
NO. 9 - 4 DAYS AFTER MY BDAY
everybody tot that i will be very happy celebrating my bday...but...few ppl noe the sadness i feel when the day comes near...coz 4 days afetr my birthday is my aunt's 2nd death anniversary... i will never forget the last one hour i spent beside her...
NO. 10 - A NEW LIFE..A NEW ME
after going through so many things in one week....i learnt alot of things...and i felt all kinds of feelings...
i look back to the period when tat guy and me started to really talk...the period before we went on a date...and the period during his exams...and the period after his exams...
maybe he never realise...but during these periods...his attitude have been very different...that's why i told him about the sudden coldness and hotness...i understand when a person is studying and busy with his own stuff...but after tat...no msg no toking no nothing...it becomes scary....i really pulled back alot of feelings tat's why i also never initiate any calls...
then finally before he is going to overseas..i decided to ask him out...but it seems like his schedule is very pack before and after the trip...well...of course i am disppointed...but...there isn't anything i can do...
tat's why i decided i rather go back to the 'friends' stage where we will forget watever feelings we mentioned to each other before his exams...in this way...everything will be better...and so many things have been happening to me that make me feel very tired...
"i hate ppl who keep saying sorry out of nowhere...coz it seems free to them and mean nothing to them..and one thing for sure...i dun like ppl who use my name to start a sentence or putting a meaning across me...coz...the feeling SUX big time..."*this was meant to be vented out...
but he said we can't really noe the feelings and we will need time to noe each other better before stepping into anything that is going to hurt someone if it doesn't work out...well...seriously...i NEVER wanted to rush into things...i also want to get to noe him better...but..getting to noe someone means communication and spending time with each other and hanging out...but his packed schedule tat doesn't include a friend like me made me feel tat he is turning his back on me...tat's why i decided to forget watever we said in the first place...no matter how sweet it was in the beginning...
i would really love to have a good tok with him and get to noe him better...coz...i also dun wish to rush into a new relationship...maybe i was too simple and he was too complicated...or was i too complicated and he was too simple...or maybe both of us are too simple thinking tat we will get to noe each other better without hanging out and not communicating...
i am someone who dun really ask alot...i use alot of my heart rather than my mind...and i am someone who can be seen through easily if u use ur heart to feel...
i dunnoe how things will turn out afetr wat i told him..i dunnoe...but once again...he is away...
tat nite i was having dinner with a friend...and unexpectedly...he noe me so well..that he can just say my character out..and bingo...he is so rite...wat is my character...hahaha...got chance then i shall share in my blog....let this be my next topic...
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