i dunnoe...

it seems weird to start all over again...and it seems weird to feel for someone again...and i guess it feels even weird if i dunnoe what he is thinking....

i dunnoe if there will be a day he will be reading my blog...but there are so many things i wanna tell him...there are so many things that i would reall like to let him noe...and i just dunnoe how to say it to him....maybe tat's why i became so i dunnoe....

during the first date..i felt very comfortable but i see him so tired...i also dun wish to say much but let him have a peaceful time and just let time be...

when he told me how happy his big family was...it reminded me of the past...but he told me sometimes past hurts....then i realise...ya...it does....i still remember every sunday all my aunties uncles and cousins will come over to my place to enjoy one full day of fun...but as my grandma pass away..my aunt pass away....family gatherings have become so little till sometimes it will take more than a day to catch up on a few things....i miss those days...

when he ask me why i am not wearing a watch that day...i just simply told him i today not wearing...but the real reason is tat...i dun wish to wear a couple watch on my first date with him...it is a form of respect to him and to anyone else....

and i guess..he will take sometime to observe me...hee...i not so easy one...but once u noe...i can be a super easy target....hahaha....i am someone who is tough on my mouth but soft on my heart...

and i am someone who actually uses my heart more than my mind to feel things...to ask questions are not my forte...coz...my heart works more in feeling...

after so many things that happen in my 3 years....moving on is not easy...but then...i realise...something is making me to move on...and tat is my heart....come to think about it....i still believe in love...